May

Back Pain and Mindset

Back pain is so widespread that there is a whole industry pretending to want to cure it but secretly rubbing their hands together hoping that it gets bigger and bigger.

There is huge money in back pain.

Back doctors are not the only greed-infested kind.

Some 20 years ago I was in psychotherapy. I was so depressed that I had to see my therapist 4 times a week. I took on a part time job to pay for it.

This had been going on for many years.

In August 1985 I took a weekend course where a simple exercise changed my life. It freed me up by showing me what was the underlying belief system that caused my depression.

After the weekend I went to see my therapist and told him that I was well and didn’t need his help any longer. He cursed me out. I was his meal ticket. He — unconsciously — was hoping I was never going to get well.

Now, back to my back: I have had back problems — seems like — forever.

In the beginning it was mostly headaches and neck aches, but after my puberty, the pain moved to my pelvic area. I had difficulty being on my feet for any length of time, sitting on anything softer than wood, and then walking, especially after standing up from sitting position was a torture.

I hated to go on dates, especially the ones that there was any sitting involved: every time I stood up, I had to stand a minute or so before I would be able to walk… Not very attractive.

Now, fast forward to 15 months ago: I was in a camp where there were 18 B.E.S.T. practitioners. If you don’t know what BEST is, it is a treatment method where all bodily issues are traced back to emotional issues, mostly old and repressed issues, and when the issues are released, so is the bodily symptom.

I had 5 treatments by different practitioners during the week I was there, and the last one seemed miraculous: the issue went back to when I was 3 years old, and decided that I was no good, and hopelessly rotten. When I could change my mind about that, with the practitioner’s help, I felt a release in my pelvis, and when I got up from the table, I could walk lightly and painlessly, for the first time in 45 years.

Unfortunately I live far (6-7 hours driving distance) from a good BEST practitioner, so I haven’t been able to pursue this course diligently enough (I went to two long-long sessions) but with my other self-healing work, I have gotten to a point where I am pain/discomfort free 90% of the time, and because it’s been gradual, I trust that I am heading to the 100% mark.